These past few weeks have been extremely tough on my sanity.. I have had a roller coaster month of February. At the beginning of Feb I started getting extremely itchy on the bottoms of my feet and my hands. I didn't think much of it until I started loosing sleep from the discomfort. Having a hernia in my groin I've been checking in with my MD regularly even though my Prenatal care is with a midwife in Kamloops. I mentioned to both of them about the itchyness and they both automatically wanted to check for "Choleostasis" in my blood work. My MD had referred me to a specialist in Kamloops. Because of some confusion I still do not have the results of that, but with me being anemic right now and previous blood work having extremely low platelet levels I've had to adjust to the idea of a hospital birth when I've spent my entire pregnancy preparing for a home birth. It has been a hard thought to part with but we finally came to term and packed our bags when there was talk early this week of inducing me if my blood work showed Choleostasis. This morning I received great news that everything looks great besides my Iron levels, that my platelets have finally gone back up in the safe zone but to still waiting on the Choelostasis results and that there is a good chance I can go back to my original home birth plan! The problem is if anything goes wrong and i need to transfer to the hospital my midwife looses all privileges as Salmon Arm doesn't give them any. If we plan this hospital birth I will be delivering in Kamloops where they will still allow me to do a water birth. Joe thinks we should be in the Kamloops hospital where we have access to everything incase of an emergency, because of the un smooth pregnancy this far and going through all the testing and appointments the universe was preparing me to come to terms with a hospital birth and that's the way I should go. I've envisioned a birthing pool, candles, my diffusers with my essential oils going. I've made a vision board and have just pictured this calm environment, laid out how I want. This feels like one of the tougher decisions I've had to make. I have until Monday morning.
I've felt like an emotionally drained zombie who hardly has motivation to parent lately but with much help from Joe and love from everyone around me I've managed to stay overall positive.
We're so close now and our baby is looking healthy which is all that matters!
37 week ultrasound, I think baby looks like a little girl!
