How about just some damn honesty about how freaking hard my C-Section recovery is...mentally.
No one ever told me to the depths of what an emergency c-section recovery actually was like. And honestly that wasn’t and hasn’t been the hardest part. If you’ve read my birth story of Rees you probably got the point that I went from labouring hard to a c-section in an extremely short period of time. My one hint that I was going into a surgery that I didn’t pick up on was Joe coming out of the bathrooms in scrubs on and me just thinking how sexy he was.
I lost multiple chunks of time that day that my brain has been working very hard at trying to get back. In the small amounts of quiet time I have in my days, I replay her birthday over and over in my head just trying to comprehend how scared I was, to try so hard to remember the times my head really doesn’t want me to remember.
I’ve been denying to myself and others that the blessings of that day outweighed all the fear and trauma I endured in my head. I am SO grateful we are both safe and ok, but the entire events have traumatized my core and that... is not easy to admit. The ease I once had seems so far away these days and I could cough that up to a lot of what my life is. But knowing that in every silent evening my head dozes to the same place each time. There is something I haven’t been accepting, that I’m still very much not ok with the unfolding series of events.
I always told people I would have many babies if my pregnancies weren’t so hard and if all I had to do was labour. I love the not knowingness of labour, I love that you can prove how strong you really are after enduring so much pain. I love the after adrenaline and release of hormones. The bliss that is having your baby in your arms right after you screamed your face off for how ever long. The tears, the way your partner looks at you. How you are some how in complete control yet not. It is a surreal experience that I was lucky enough to have twice.
I knew Rees would be my last baby, I was so excited to see the tears roll down Joe’s face and see his reaction to meeting his daughter for the first time. And I missed it, I missed a lot. I was put under and he wasn’t even able to be in the room, I did not meet her for almost 2 hours after. I woke up scared, alone in a dark room with no baby in my numb empty tummy. With a lady near by but non the less alone. The last words that came out of my mouth before I went under were yells, multiple yells of “YOU’RE TORTURING ME” “IS MY DAUGHTER GOING TO BE OK?” “IS SHE ALIVE?” “STOPPP” as they held me down during extreme contractions, inserting a cathador, holding oxygen over my face. My midwife said it was very sad for her to see and she had never experienced what she experienced with me. This has made us pretty close.
They call it an “E0” the most emergency c-section there is, multiple nurses came in during the following days mentioning what I had been through that had made its way through the maternity ward, yet I didn’t remember most of it. And for good reason I try to tell myself, my subconscious was there.. I was not. I see the same 6 flashes over and over again with nothing in between. I can bring myself back to that fear with a single thought, I well up with tears when I tell her birth story and that is not how I want to remember it. So I fight myself a lot. My midwife has offered to walk me through the hospital and the hallways and the OR telling me what has happened and I want and think I need that, but not yet. I am far from healed, and this may seem like a small problem in many big schemes because we are both safe and ok which I am so eternally grateful. It is my big problem right now because I need to bring calmness back to my quiet times, to be the best mama to my beautiful babies.
I have skipped appointments to avoid reliving it with the people who were there out of fear, I can’t make sense why..but here I announce I am going to be taking every step forward from here on out. I bought a journal, to try and flip the flashes I have into positives, to see if I can remember anymore as Joe has been encouraging me to seek out someone, or take a tiny step in the right direction. So here I try.
Welcoming Rees Tenley Deziel
Introducing Rees Tenley Deziel 🎀💖
July 7th, 2018, 9:11am
7lbs 10oz
Wednesday July 4th night (her due date) I had been feeling uneasy for about 24 hours about her movement, she was only moving when I pushed at her and even then it was minimal, my amazing midwife got Joe and I to come to Vernon bags packed just in case for a Non Stress Test. During that she wasn’t having the heart accelerations they wanted and planned to induce me that night but the labor ward was filling up with girls in established labor so they pushed it for first thing the next morning after we had an ultrasound. Well I woke up puking at 3 am and spent the entire day ill as can be not able to keep even a sip of water down, dehydrated as ever for the entire day unable to be induced. Throughout this all I am having steady 2-4 minute apart contractions, every time they would check how dilated I was it would either be going backwards or only a bit forwards making little to no change. The most confusing part is some checks her head was engaged in my pelvis and they were able to poke at her, and then the next check they wouldn’t be able to find her head at all, which once a babies head is engaged.. it’s usually engaged.
The morning of July 6th they inserted Cervidil a hormone to soften your cervix and sometimes bring on contractions, all day Joe and I were able to relax, we went on walks, they had an awesome little cafe downstairs we frequented over our 5 day stay. I was feeling better and it was nice to just be on a little hospital date together. By the evening things had gotten crazy intense, but again when checked at 2am her head was gone and I had made almost negative progress so in the morning when we had an OB in the hospital they were going to safely break my water to get things moving and hopefully keep her engaged.
We woke up the morning of July 7th to another dreadful check which ended up having great news, I was dilated to 4cm, and her head was yet again engaged so my amazing midwife broke my water right then and there, very quickly things got real, contractions hurt.. Joe would tell me to breath and I would snap back telling him to breath 😂, I always put Joe in charge of telling them when I’m ready for pain meds because he can read when I’m just asking and when I stop tolerating the pain. About an hour into the contractions I was telling Joe to give me an Engagement ring or an Epidural because I couldn’t take it anymore and would only give him one more contraction or else.. who knows but either way the nurse and my midwife were crying they were laughing at all my commentary and in the middle of this miss Ree gave us the scares of our lives and her heart rate droped just under 40 which is low or we couldn’t find it at all. Through very painful contractions they were needing to man handle me into positions to try and find her heart rate, at this point I was only dilated to a 6 and her head was GONE again, which should not be possible.
The stars aligned ✨ and everyone who was needed for an emergency c-section happened to be at the hospital for completely unrelated appointments or consults (they don’t staff the Operating rooms on weekends) and they all came to my room and tossed Joe scrubs. That was the moment I realized what was happening was when joe walked out of our bathroom in scrubs looking sexy as ever. It’s also one of the moments my mind has kept flashing back to during this recovery. I was rushed down the hallway, accompanied by atleast 7 people. I remember in the elevator asking if she was ok on repeat. We got outside an operating room where they told us Joe couldn’t come in as I had to be put under, there was no time for anything. Our OB doing the surgery came out and reassured Joe saying “ I will have your baby in your arms in 5 minutes I promise”. So at 9:11am she as promised was safely delivered.
Her umbilical cord was wrapped around one ankle, then separately wrapped around the other and knotted in the middle, she was on a bungee cord in my uterus & there was no way I could of delivered her without a c-section. I was blessed with 2 fast vaginal deliveries and this has been a long road with my busy guys but I am so blessed to have Joe as my rock down this road, he got an hour and a half of skin to skin with her before I was brought up and their bond is clear to everyone already, she’s so smitten with him.
I have lots to share as far as these last 3 weeks of recovery so I will be writing another post with pictures soon.
She’s perfect, she’s an amazing breast feeder & always listen to your gut mamas, I am so glad I am able to announce her safe arrival 💖
I can not rave enough about the nurses, the staff the cleanliness, the gorgeous rooms and most importantly my amazing midwives in Vernon, I’m so glad i had my midwife throughout this rollercoaster.
single momma > not single momma
When you come into a single moms life you are walking into someone's life who is damaged in some which way if not many. Someone who is enduring two peoples work daily, sometimes with or without help. When you walk in you are a glimpse of hope. You are potentially a saving grace in 2, 3 maybe even 4 people's eyes - not just 1.
I don't think that people appreciate what it takes to take on someone else's child or children and know that someone gave up on this family because things got hard. You don't play around with a single parent, you're either in or you're out. The trial period is brief.
For us,
He walked into a family knowing things aren't perfect from the get go and that his responsibilities start now. He didn't have to you know... But he did. Even after experiencing just a piece of what he was in for, he stayed. He could of left but he chose to pick up the pieces, work through the insecurities and emotions that I had let sit and sink in further and further without addressing them. He chooses every day to parent a child that is someone else's DNA while being there for his own. He puts up with my dejavu of experiencing these same situations again and reminds me that this time it's different and that he's here and never going anywhere. He is on call 24/7.
Now don't get me wrong, before he came I worked hard to find myself, build a secure, strong, independent woman. Be confident in my body and try to maintain while working 10-12 hour days, come home and be the mom my son needed. Provide for my child with minimal help. I cried myself to sleep more times then I could count. I know some people have it harder. But I had to accept that I would never have the "picture perfect family". I would - if I found the right person have indeed a broken family that I would be making whole but that my son may never call him "dad", that I would have to explain why dad lives so far away one day. But as a single parent getting into a new relationship you are going back to trying to work next to someone, it's definitely an adjustment. You are teaching them your everyday routine, what you and your child (children) need, their sensitivity level, how to communicate, what "pu pet show" (Paw Patrol) means, and are trying to understand how hard this is on both of you. When you find the right person who is willing to learn all of this and much much more, Who has the level of patience required to do all of this and more you won't ever stop putting the work in because the sense of appreciation and amount of love you feel for someone who did, does and will continue to do this is unbelievable.
Single mommas do not settle. Don't go for someone who you would have in high school, go for the nice guy. The guy who does the little things, who you know is ready. Don't get caught up in age.. I learnt that age doesn't tell you who's "mature" or "ready". Go for the guy who doesn't give up, who jumps through every hoop and hoops you didn't even set up and has proven he's capable and his worth. Make sure he's got both feet in it, and that he's going above and beyond for you guys. And remember they only have to be your idea of perfect, no one else's.
Whenever you're feeling lower than low, KNOW that it's leading you to where you're supposed to be, and ultimately it will be perfect❤️
What baby wearing looks like in our house
I have a huge love for babywearing! More so this time around as there is no better way to stay close to both my boys at once. I am by no means an expert and I'm learning as I go but here are the carriers that are used in our household!
Baby K'tan OriginalRetail: 49.95
Please feel free to email me (under the contact tab) with any questions, comments or suggestions as I am still learning! Thanks for reading!
Maya Wrap Lightly Padded Ring Sling
Retail: 79.95
This is my go to at home as it is so simple and easy to breastfeed in while on the move with Carsen! I love the shoulder as its comfortable on for long periods of time, the down side is you can't adjust the width but I find this size fits perfect. I found this one used while looking for a Sakura Bloom in like new condition. The tail has a nice big pocket for Kip's soother and or my keys and cards. I generally twist the tail until the pocket and fold down the top rail.
It is made of 100% cotton and hand loomed which makes it much more breathable than a machine woven material.
Note: I am wearing a size small and have twisted and tucked the tail.
This is basically a ready to wear wrap, extremely quick and easy to put baby in and their are at least 6 different ways to wear your baby! There is no wrapping or buckling involved. It has a double loop design with an evenly way to distribute the weight. It has a sash to add support as baby gets bigger, it also has a big pocket which you are able to stuff the entire carrier into the pocket when not in use and it closes like a bag.
Note: I am wearing a size small.
Boba 3G Carrier
Retail: 125.00
I LOVE THIS SOFT STRUCTURED CARRIER! I also have it in the breathable lightweight version. This one I have used since my first was just a baby. It is a easy compare to the Ergo carrier. The reason I chose Boba over Ergo is because of my short torso, the Ergo was just too long. I also love how you don't need a infant insert with the Boba the bottom support just snaps up. It has a pocket behind babies head that has a removable hood and a pocket around the support waist band. It can adjust in every area that may need adjusting. It has purse holding straps which I have also used for groceries. I use this carrier for my mom hikes twice a week and Joe uses it around the house almost daily. When Carsen hit about 1-1.5 I added on the foot straps which are like stirups and he loved them. The back carry is the most handy as your baby gets bigger! There are not enough positive things to say about this carrier.
Stretchy Wrap Unknown
I don't actually know what brand this wrap is as it was a gift! It is decently hard to wrap especially if you have no experience but there are SO many ways to wear this wrap! YouTube is my bestfriend when I attempt to wear this guy.
1 whole month with Kip!
Kiptyn Lars is 5 weeks old now, how is that even possible. 5 weeks of pregnancy is eternity, literally. And 5 weeks with a newborn is a blink.
swaddle: Lulujo
hat: aldo
top: joe fresh
cardigan: jardines domain
sandles: call it spring
swaddle: Lulujo
No one really prepares you for the adjustment of one chaotic mini to one chaotic mini and a newborn. Carsen is 3.5 and was a fairly dreamy toddler (besides the attitude) until about.. 5 weeks ago. I now have probably the whiniest (is that a word? It should be) 3 year old alive.. With the BIGGEST ATTITUDE. Kiptyn is dream baby, he eats well, he only wakes up twice a night and has made his own schedule already (I know it's bound to change). Carsen is what is taking adjusting to.
My toddler tip: take them outside, every day. Even if for 15 minutes, even on the days you don't want to! It will make you both feel better!
top: joe fresh
cardigan: jardines domain
sandles: call it spring
Whenever I am breastfeeding Kiptyn, Carsen needs something 5 minutes ago and i have about 25 seconds to retrieve his demand before full on melt down. Whenever I tell Carsen to do something I get various responses some as such:
"You go ______ momma"
"I am seriously not doing that"
"You need to settle down, just settle down"
"...or maybe not mom"
"Ok (pause) -no action- fine, fine"
"No -walks away-"
I've missed writing a lot of them down lately because my hands have been very full or my phone isn't on me, but I think you get the point. Mr. Kip sleeps through all of the crying and screaming.
Kip is starting to react to you when you smile and laugh. He is extremely alert and bright eyed, he spends a lot of time in either a wrap, ring sling or soft structured carrier which has made him a little co dependent lately but it is one of the only ways to keep up with Carsen and get things done. I highly suggest baby wearing for all mommas! Especially if you're breastfeeding because there are a lot of carriers out there that make it easy to do that while on the move! I'm going to get Joe to snap some pictures of Kiptyn in all of our carriers this week on myself and Joe since it is not just for moms!
My postpartum healing has been a dream come true- like it was with Carsen.
My bleeding stopped after 2 weeks and was always fairly light, within that two weeks I went from 150 to 127 (pre pregnancy 120) I am currently at 124. My stomach has almost flattened out completely but the love handles I gained during pregnancy are still holding on strong. I have been to the gym twice now just doing cardio in preparation for soccer which starts next Thursday! And I have gone on two hikes with a big group of moms! I've been out of the house almost every day since Kip was born comfortably. I give so much credit to breastfeeding and why my body is bouncing back so quickly! I also have just recently stopped using my "Belly Bandit" and I swear that helped with my uterus going back down to size and keeping my bleeding minimal. If you haven't heard of a Belly Bandit I highly recommend checking them out!
I also wore my BLANQI under bust belly support tank, which is actually a maternity top but it is so nicely fitted and I found it nice and slimming to wear under most of my tops for the first 3 weeks. I recommend these for my pregnant mommas! Worth every cent.
OUR FAVOURITE PRODUCTS FOR KIPTYN SO FAR (Carriers not included):
Wubbanub: http://www.wubbanub.com/
Natursutten Pacifier: http://www.natursutten.com/
Aden and Anais Bamboo Swaddlers AND Carseat Canopy: https://www.adenandanais.ca/en-ca/home
Ergo Pouch: http://www.ergopouch.com.au/
Maxi Cosi Prezi Car Seat: http://www.maxi-cosi.com/ca-en/products/car-seats/infant/prezi.aspx
City Select Stroller by Baby Jogger: http://www.babyjogger.com/product/city-select/
Welcoming Kiptyn Lars Deziel
On March 6th, 2016 we welcomed our little MAN into this world, that's right we now have two beautiful boys. It was extremely shocking to me when I reached under my newborns bum to pull him closer and felt balls. I was almost positive we were having a girl!
Going back to a few days before he was born....and off of my last blog post of our tough decision we went back and fourth and ultimately decided by the Monday to go back to our home birth plan. Late Wednesday I received a call from our specialist in Kamloops saying that Salmon Arm Lab had misplaced my blood work and we would not have the results back until closer to my due date and with Cholestasis usually ending in a stillbirth that I should come to Kamloops and be induced immediately. This phone call put me into a full blown panic and minor breakdown. It was mostly hard because I knew that there was a chance I don't have Cholestasis and that I would be forcing our baby out before it was ready and that can also cause complications. I tried so hard to hold it together as Joe wasn't home and I had Carsen. I phoned him and told him what was going on and he reminded me to call my midwife and see what my options were. After getting off the phone with my midwife she said if my gut was telling me to be induced that I should come to Kamloops Thursday and we would try to get labour started naturally with an induction drink and then book the induction for Friday if I wasn't already in labour.
So Thursday (March 4th) evening we left Carsen with my parents and headed to Kamloops packed and ready to come home with our new little bundle. We got to our midwifes, got some ingredients for an induction drink and went to one of my best friends who had offered to house us for the night. We got there and arrived to her oldest slicing open her forehead on the wall so they raced to the ER, we kept their youngest, ordered pizza and drank my concoction of nastiness. My contractions started shortly after and we all went to bed. I was up basically all night with these irregular contractions, the next morning we took the girls out for breakfast at Cora's where I received a phone call from my midwife saying that the lab in Vancouver received my blood work and I didn't have Cholestasis so there was no need to induce me. My feelings after hearing that were relief and disappointment as we had expected to leave Kamloops with a baby but I was so thankful our baby wasn't at risk. We went to the hospital anyway to do a non stress test and see how my contractions were. We got there early so we ran around the parkade for half an hour, up and down every stair case multiple times trying to strengthen my contractions! They were still irregular so we were sent back to Salmon Arm as there was a chance they could just peter off. All night Friday I contracted and got 0 sleep. Saturday we went on a beautiful walk with our friend Brett and Carsey then had a BBQ (STILL CONTRACTING). That night was UFC night and I got talked into attending a UFC party! We brought Carsen. I started bouncing on a yoga ball as soon as we got there. I could feel my contractions getting extremely close so I started to time them on an App (https://itunes.apple.com/ca/app/smart-contraction-timer-labor/id877303791?mt=8) The app was telling me to go to the hospital but I refused to believe it as I had been contracting for what seemed like ever and I couldn't believe this could be it! As Conor McGregor starts fighting Nate Diaz Carsen tells me he needs to go to the bathroom, I was so close to telling Joe to go as my contractions were hurting so bad at this point! But I literally thought what if this gravity helps my water break. Well that's what happened... I was helping Carsen put his pyjamas back on and there went my water! All the guys couldn't believe it, they had been joking about it since the beginning of the party. Well Joe only got to watch less than 2 minutes of the fight and we raced Carsen to meet up with my parents and headed to the Salmon Arm hospital as we didn't know if we'd have enough time to make it to Kamloops. We arrived and they did a NST and checked my dilation where I was only 2cm dilated but fully effaced so they said if I wanted to go to Kamloops so my midwife could deliver the baby we better go NOW as it is my second baby and things tend to happen fast! Well by the time they told us to go it was going on midnight so we almost took there advice but raced through a Tim Hortons drive through, shortly after Joe drove through a red light and we figured out we were low on gas! Still contracting frequently I phoned all the gas stations we would be passing and they were all closed except for a Flying J's on the outside of Kamloops, we either had to turn around or take a chance! We took a chance and made it to the Flying J's - gassed up and pulled into the hospital. Almost immediately after being admitted my contractions stopped all together! I was so exhausted and so discouraged I couldn't believe it. The nurses told me to get some sleep and they would call my midwife if my contractions picked up again or first thing in the morning. Well I just wanted my flipping baby and I had to get my vitals checked every half an hour so needless to say I went on my 3rd night of not sleeping but Joe did! The next morning every minute that went by we waited to hear the game plan so we brain stormed boys names as we had 1 but weren't sold on it. They then told us we would start the Oxytocin at 11am. 11am never came so slow, but once we started there was no stopping us! At 1pm (after a nice walk around the hospital) my labour "officially" started. Joe was SO amazing through out it all, I couldn't of asked more of this amazing man. He knew exactly what to say and when. He helped me envision everything I needed and kept me calm through out the entire labour (until the pushing haha) and with a little pain medication (Fentanyl) at the end we welcomed our little man into the world at 5:58pm. It was so intimate, we only had our midwife Joanna, Joe and I. Joanna was AMAZING with helping me through the pushing, she said all the right things and kept me on my birth plan. Kiptyn came out fussing but not crying, you could feel his calm energy as soon as he was born. We delayed cord clamping and allowed me to have immediate skin to skin with him which was when I announced I felt balls. Joe was able to cut the cord and then have his skin to skin with Kip while I delivered my placenta. He then latched (breastfeeding) as soon as I got him back. We got him checked out and he looked perfect weighing 6lbs 14ozs, 47cms long. Joanna told our nurses to let us go at 10pm and we were home by midnight! We left the hospital with a nameless baby as we still weren't sure what this little guy's name was going to be. The next day we decided on Kiptyn Lars (after my uncle) Deziel.
Going back to a few days before he was born....and off of my last blog post of our tough decision we went back and fourth and ultimately decided by the Monday to go back to our home birth plan. Late Wednesday I received a call from our specialist in Kamloops saying that Salmon Arm Lab had misplaced my blood work and we would not have the results back until closer to my due date and with Cholestasis usually ending in a stillbirth that I should come to Kamloops and be induced immediately. This phone call put me into a full blown panic and minor breakdown. It was mostly hard because I knew that there was a chance I don't have Cholestasis and that I would be forcing our baby out before it was ready and that can also cause complications. I tried so hard to hold it together as Joe wasn't home and I had Carsen. I phoned him and told him what was going on and he reminded me to call my midwife and see what my options were. After getting off the phone with my midwife she said if my gut was telling me to be induced that I should come to Kamloops Thursday and we would try to get labour started naturally with an induction drink and then book the induction for Friday if I wasn't already in labour.
So Thursday (March 4th) evening we left Carsen with my parents and headed to Kamloops packed and ready to come home with our new little bundle. We got to our midwifes, got some ingredients for an induction drink and went to one of my best friends who had offered to house us for the night. We got there and arrived to her oldest slicing open her forehead on the wall so they raced to the ER, we kept their youngest, ordered pizza and drank my concoction of nastiness. My contractions started shortly after and we all went to bed. I was up basically all night with these irregular contractions, the next morning we took the girls out for breakfast at Cora's where I received a phone call from my midwife saying that the lab in Vancouver received my blood work and I didn't have Cholestasis so there was no need to induce me. My feelings after hearing that were relief and disappointment as we had expected to leave Kamloops with a baby but I was so thankful our baby wasn't at risk. We went to the hospital anyway to do a non stress test and see how my contractions were. We got there early so we ran around the parkade for half an hour, up and down every stair case multiple times trying to strengthen my contractions! They were still irregular so we were sent back to Salmon Arm as there was a chance they could just peter off. All night Friday I contracted and got 0 sleep. Saturday we went on a beautiful walk with our friend Brett and Carsey then had a BBQ (STILL CONTRACTING). That night was UFC night and I got talked into attending a UFC party! We brought Carsen. I started bouncing on a yoga ball as soon as we got there. I could feel my contractions getting extremely close so I started to time them on an App (https://itunes.apple.com/ca/app/smart-contraction-timer-labor/id877303791?mt=8) The app was telling me to go to the hospital but I refused to believe it as I had been contracting for what seemed like ever and I couldn't believe this could be it! As Conor McGregor starts fighting Nate Diaz Carsen tells me he needs to go to the bathroom, I was so close to telling Joe to go as my contractions were hurting so bad at this point! But I literally thought what if this gravity helps my water break. Well that's what happened... I was helping Carsen put his pyjamas back on and there went my water! All the guys couldn't believe it, they had been joking about it since the beginning of the party. Well Joe only got to watch less than 2 minutes of the fight and we raced Carsen to meet up with my parents and headed to the Salmon Arm hospital as we didn't know if we'd have enough time to make it to Kamloops. We arrived and they did a NST and checked my dilation where I was only 2cm dilated but fully effaced so they said if I wanted to go to Kamloops so my midwife could deliver the baby we better go NOW as it is my second baby and things tend to happen fast! Well by the time they told us to go it was going on midnight so we almost took there advice but raced through a Tim Hortons drive through, shortly after Joe drove through a red light and we figured out we were low on gas! Still contracting frequently I phoned all the gas stations we would be passing and they were all closed except for a Flying J's on the outside of Kamloops, we either had to turn around or take a chance! We took a chance and made it to the Flying J's - gassed up and pulled into the hospital. Almost immediately after being admitted my contractions stopped all together! I was so exhausted and so discouraged I couldn't believe it. The nurses told me to get some sleep and they would call my midwife if my contractions picked up again or first thing in the morning. Well I just wanted my flipping baby and I had to get my vitals checked every half an hour so needless to say I went on my 3rd night of not sleeping but Joe did! The next morning every minute that went by we waited to hear the game plan so we brain stormed boys names as we had 1 but weren't sold on it. They then told us we would start the Oxytocin at 11am. 11am never came so slow, but once we started there was no stopping us! At 1pm (after a nice walk around the hospital) my labour "officially" started. Joe was SO amazing through out it all, I couldn't of asked more of this amazing man. He knew exactly what to say and when. He helped me envision everything I needed and kept me calm through out the entire labour (until the pushing haha) and with a little pain medication (Fentanyl) at the end we welcomed our little man into the world at 5:58pm. It was so intimate, we only had our midwife Joanna, Joe and I. Joanna was AMAZING with helping me through the pushing, she said all the right things and kept me on my birth plan. Kiptyn came out fussing but not crying, you could feel his calm energy as soon as he was born. We delayed cord clamping and allowed me to have immediate skin to skin with him which was when I announced I felt balls. Joe was able to cut the cord and then have his skin to skin with Kip while I delivered my placenta. He then latched (breastfeeding) as soon as I got him back. We got him checked out and he looked perfect weighing 6lbs 14ozs, 47cms long. Joanna told our nurses to let us go at 10pm and we were home by midnight! We left the hospital with a nameless baby as we still weren't sure what this little guy's name was going to be. The next day we decided on Kiptyn Lars (after my uncle) Deziel.
Maternity Gallery
Taken at 37 weeks pregnant
This was such a fun shoot! A little on the chilly side but the photos turned out so well.
Our photographer is absolutely awesome at capturing everything i want in all of our shoots, she is SO fun to work with, AND she allows us to feel so natural. I highly recommend her to everyone in the Okanagan. We purchased a package with her so she could capture this last year of our lives and i'm so glad we invested in something so timeless.
NEWBORN PICTURES COMING SOON :)
Cheryl Peterson
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